What drives me?

Isn’t it better to be love driven rather than fear driven.
For instance, you could say that because you don’t steal doesn’t mean that you’re kleptophobic. (In the broadest sense that it could be understood, a fear of stealing.) Rather, it is that you choose to be content with what’s yours and to respect others, their right of ownership and their freedom to retain it. You say that’s love; no fear in it.