Grateful — January 2017

How could I be grateful for the good with the grave
They told me she died
Brutal
I can’t be happy it went bad
What about her child
Left to live with wolves and vampires
You’ve got to make it up to her
As though you had some blame to claim

Why
Who understands it
Man’s true power
How do you manage it

You must be great
Awesome in that way
I see a way to the gates
Grateful

For the sake of your name
Make a name for yourself
Work your joy in her heart
And may her heart know your joy

You must be great
Awesome in that way
I see a way to the gates
You are faithful

Thank you that you always hear me
I am indeed thankful
Lover

Making a Way: Let There Be Christmas

Dear Julia,

There’s something that God would make along with man on the sixth day: Christmas. It took some time to come though. But till forever, we will celebrate His birth — Jesus the Christ.

Even if you’re not Christian [yet] meditating on this song (see below for made a way by Travis Greene) can help your appreciation of the depth of meaning for Christians that is encapsulated in Christmas.

Of course there’s some backstory, and you probably know some if not all of it already. Regardless of whether you know Him or not, have a truly merry Christmas weekend. And may it lead to lasting joys and happiness.

Regards,

Ogbeide

The Republicans are needed but…

The Republicans are cautious. And that’s needed. (Some would called them conservative with a negative spin, others would do so with a positive mind.) But they could be so conservative that they slip into a hypermetropia, and so miss the possible fact that they might ‘throw out the baby with the bath water.’

Let me go

I don’t know what to say
How to tell you I’m sorry
Guilt consumes me
Freezes my confidence
Broods over the sadness
That I stepped into a snare

It was good for the while
A period as a wink
What was I thinking

Let me go
Free me from our bond
That I feel I hurt no one
If I put a stake through my core
Nor cause me pain
If by what I do I be hurting you

Some things just happen
Not this one
I blinked
Why me
Walked outside the walls
As with a mind brainless

That you love me so is reason to stay
That I love you so is the reason I want to go

Shh
Breathe
Love
Live

Let me go
Free me from our bond
That I feel I hurt no one
If I put a stake through my core
Nor cause me pain
If by what I do I be hurting you

That you love me so is reason to stay
That I love you so is the reason I want to go

Shh
Heal
Love
Live

 

Beethoven and Confucius: Drawings

You hear a brilliance, and feel a wisdom in his art: Beethoven

His expression of his wisdom is palpably art: Confucius

Drawings by Ogbeide Imahe; circa mid-nineties; biro on drawing paper. The first was copied from a newspaper clipping from a Nigerian newspaper. The picture of Confucius was drawn from some textbook, I don’t remember which.

Because the world…

Back away
Fight another day
Would it sway your way again
Because the world has moved away

Take the step and remain
Change the time and refrain
Things will not stay the same
Because the world has moved again

It’s the dance that we play
I lead and she trails
If she leads I race
Because the world is a moving train

Not a ride we should take
If we want to win the race
Take the pain of the narrow way
Because the world would lead astray

Holding on to these rails
Down a hill up a mountain
Where is the level way
Because the world has a say

I could never earn your heart

‘Loyal’ lyrics, sung by Lauren Daigle, with some thoughts and meditations (in parentheses). The song was written by Jason Ingram, Paul Mabury, and Jonas Myrin.

I could never earn Your heart
(Your love came of its will; unconditional)
I could never reach that far
(I am not perfect, and beauty gets old)
But You have pulled me close
(You want me, and have come close)
You’ve never let me go
(You always want me, and you stay close)
I’m safe forever in Your arms
(You hold me, keep me, keep my trust, protect my soul)
Your promises I can not break
(You promised; You keep your promises)
And I know You will never change
(You remain the same, with that constant essence)

Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal
Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal
More faithful than the rising sun
(Sure as sure can be)
This grace for me I can’t outrun
(I could never get too far gone)
Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal

You are always there for me
(Always on my side, helping every time, and rooting for me)
You listen every time I speak
(Everything I have to say matters to you)
You look into my eyes
(I am something to you; you see me)
You see the things I hide
(I am naked before You; You know me inside out)
And say that You will never leave
(You choose to stay, loving me all the same, regardless of anything)
Your promises I can not break
(You said it, and you’ve done it)
And I know You will never change
(I can rely on you; trust your love)

Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal
Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal
More faithful than the rising sun
(Certain, as certain can be)
This grace for me I can’t outrun
(Your loving-kindness reaches to my depths and limits)
Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal

When my world shakes
(‘Shit’ happens, and sometimes I falter)
Your love remains unshaken
(No shaking, Love is not moved)
So constant, so perfect, unwavering
(Unashamed to be with me, raising me)
When my world falls
Your love remains unfailing
(Facing failure and shame, you remain my help and comforter)
So constant, so perfect, unwavering
(unafraid to face my reality; you are with me while I grow, as I grow, making me grow)
So constant, so perfect, unwavering
(Your love is always with me, for me, for you)

Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal
Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal
More faithful than the rising sun
(steady, stable, and loyal to me and your word)
This grace for me I can’t outrun
(Your love is active; follows, stays, persists with me )
Your love is, Your love is
Your love is loyal

Loyal

Imagine Google apps as viruses or spyware

Maybe that’s not a fair analogy, but it is an interesting thought that Google apps would make fantastic viruses and spyware.

For one, you don’t need them to act like part of the operating system (Android) but they do anyway.

You can disable some of them though, but you do not get the option to uninstall them like regular programs. Not unless you root your phone, which voids your warranty. (Very convenient for phone manufacturers, I suppose.)

It’s interesting that Microsoft and Linux give you root privileges to your own computer. But for your ‘security,’ more likely the security of Google’s business, root privilege has to be wrestled from Android at potentially great expense. Google’s Android seems to give the user the ‘barest’ minimum of control. Like when task manager (on Windows) is disabled by a virus.

Then you notice that Google Play Services updated itself in the background without the option to give it the permission to do so. (Of course it is not the only culprit.) That’s classic virus/spyware behavior — doing interesting things under the hood.

You boot up the phone for the first time and you are asked to acknowledge (setup) the presence of Google. Then her apps encourage you to leave your door open in order to enable a better service experience for you. In real life, this is not smart.

(It’s okay that we have nothing to hide, but our private parts are still private parts. We might choose to bare almost all on the beach, but we leave the beach where it is when we leave it. It seems like several app builders just want us to live life fully as on the beach — for the convenience that that would provide them.)

Then, was there ever a sudden realisation that your phonebook was backed up to your Google profile for your convenience. That’s okay if you don’t mind. But was this feature on by default? You probably told it to. There are settings choices that the make easy to make, and may be useful. There are also menacing default settings, particularly those you cannot change (like the compulsory background updates using your data), or the option to change is blurred or discouraged (placed at the bottom of a scrollable menu, or ‘dehighlighted’).

In summary, it is possible, perhaps easy, to view Google’s Android as a hijacked opensource operating system. It’s just about their business though; nothing personal. (The article in the following link highlights the business: http://arstechnica.com/gadgets/2013/10/googles-iron-grip-on-android-controlling-open-source-by-any-means-necessary/). It doesn’t seem like things have changed.

So I’m beginning to think that it is in the interest of the public, national security, and basic human rights, that Google’s Android come with root access provided, and better, easily accessible user control of access to the private. And if Microsoft lost an antitrust case, should Google not lose one too.